pantsfarm

read this online some place somwhere:

I wish I were the kind of person that could just stand up from this computer, and go over to someone to hug them, because I want to right now. Instead of writing a stupid blog entry about hugging, I’d be doing it right now. I’m not a touchy-feely person at all. When I think about hugging, I feel embarassed, and kind of dumb. I never feel embarassed when people hug me, though. But I feel embarassing when I hug someone spontaneously. I’m not sure why. Sometimes I feel like I won’t be recieved well. It’s such a huge step for me, since I normally don’t hug people, hugging someone makes me very vulnerable. Like I’m naked. I can’t really explain this fear.

What is it? Why do people spend more time on their computers than they do talking to family? Even when someone is sad, especially when someone is sad, and I want to hug them, just curl up next to them and wrap my arms around them, and tell them, I love you and I appreciate you, and I don’t even know where to start thanking you for everything you’ve done for me. I want to feel warm skin and soft tshirts, and steadily heaving chests. Not to be in front of a machine.

Theirs ended with them actually doing it. I did not.